Day Fifteen

Today is my wedding anniversary; I have been married for 6 years.

Whilst my life at the moment might not be the way that I pictured it, it certainly is filled with joy. I might moan about my husband, but the good times definitely out weigh the bad!

Advertisements

Day Fourteen

Sorry about yesterday, I was just exhausted – not that I did much!

It ended up being a late night because Mother In Law decided that she wanted to celebrate her return from holiday by going out to dinner. We went to Frankie and Benny’s, which is a favourite place our ours to eat. Unfortunately, everyone else decided to go there too so, despite having books, we still has to wait 30 minutes for our table and because there were so many people, the meals took a long time – although they were worth the wait. It was so noisy there that J found it incredibly difficult to cope with, especially when they played the birthday music (which seemed a lot louder than normal) to the extent that she would cling to me each time it happened. This is all part of her autism and sensory processing. I am not sure why restaurants feel the need to play music so obnoxiously loud. Maybe I am just getting old. We arrived home at 8.30pm and then I had promised a ‘picnic’ with T and M….

… A few years back, when writing reports, I would lock myself away in the bedroom, with a small box of maltsters (or some other delectable delight!) and write, whilst ‘watching’ a TV programme in the background (diagnosis murder, new tricks…) T would stay with me from time to time to enjoy the chocs and this eventually evolved into night time events and the hubs will sleep downstairs. He really enjoyed these times and have become a little treat. We’d not done this for a while and so I’d promised we would. Of course, now M likes to join in too although after one night of the three of us sharing a bed I vowed never again!

Today, I actually managed to get some school work done. We also went to the local lake again as there was some pokemon go event happening that the hubs wanted to go to. I have to say, I don’t see the point in it myself. I am sure it is good that people are out and about and getting exercise, but how much of the world are they taking in with their noses in the screen?

I have kept up with the housework, caught up on the laundry and made a coffee cake. Fitbit says I’ve done 7470 steps and I’ve completed all my active minutes. I feel productive!

Day Twelve

Today, I was going to do some school work, but decided to spend the day with the children instead.

This morning we went swimming and had a great time. J had a rubber ring and thoroughly enjoyed the independence that that bought. Of course M and T enjoyed it too. M was very pleased with herself, swimming along.

For lunch, we went to the pizza hut buffet – delicious but very naughty!

Day Eleven

Today has been crazy busy.

So, I have been part of an on line forum, in one form or another, since 2006. When I was pregnant with T, I had a massive bleed and was told I had miscarried. I spent the weekend searching for help, for hope – that there was some possibility that they were wrong. An ultrasound 3 days later (don’t get me started on that story!) showed that baby Bob (as we nicknamed him) was still there and I remained in the group.

As you can imagine, with a tight group of ladies, there were falling outs. Some of these were vulgar, like ‘can’t believe you are about to be a mother’ type vulgar. Over the years the group split a part and numbers dwindle and we were left with a group of around 70 women on a facebook group, which I happen to have started.

Around the 20th of July, that all changed when the group took another bitter turn for the umpteenth time. Some of the ladies had a falling out away from the group and it spilt in – with what could only be described as cyber bullying taking place. I had been away from the group for a while because of the turn it took so I regained control. Changed the name and instigated the rules that you will not attack other people and abuse would be reported.

Everything was going well; the group had a new surge of life as, aside from the bullying posts, the place had been quiet. All of a sudden people were back, posting. Perhaps they felt safer? Until – 7 days later, one woman decided she didn’t like the new name. Two others joined in and a vote was suggested. I said no. I said I liked the name and didn’t plan on changing it. Well, the proverbial hit the fan! I was called a dictator, queen bee, you name it. All because of a dumb name. However, I stuck steadfast and took a stand. A stand against the corrupt nature that the group had evolved into and sometimes you just have to. All of a sudden, those elements that had been quiet, that had not participated all week were suddenly there, joining in. A whiff of drama and people love it, which is such a shame.

I made two changes – I reiterated rules we’ve always had (which is basic common dignity) and changed a name for the sake of restoring harmony. I stand by my decision and feel that if people need to walk away because I changed a name, prepared to leave 10 years worth of friendship over the fact I didn’t want to change a group name, then so be it. Because surely, they aren’t disagreeing with the morals behind the group??

Day ten

I am beginning to lose focus. I need to get back on track – lazy days and feeling unproductive. Not sensible eating and generally feeling like I’ve not achieved much. Will do better.

Day nine

Today has been an around the house kind of day.  Money is dwindling and I still have T’s birthday to pay for. The weather is holding out though and for the most part the children are entertaining themselves although there was a little falling out this morning.

I feel tired today. I haven’t really done very much – kept up with the house work, played a little on the Sims. I need to do school work tomorrow.

Hubs actually cooked tea tonight, although he did still go out pokemon hunting.

Can you keep a secret?

Or rather, is it OK for me to?

I haven’t been overly honest with my husband about this blog. Lying by omission I suppose it is technically called.

When I first started this blog, I wanted anonymity because of my job. I wanted to be able to talk about my profession without fear of reprisals because of what I have said however, I have found that I haven’ t really spoken about my work and so what I have perhaps subconsciously sought is anonymity for myself.

I didn’t not intentionally set out to use the blog as a way of letting of steam about my personal life but then I don’t really know what it was I wanted to achieve.

Hubby saw me writing ont he blog last night and I am not sure I want him to read it, because I know I come across very negative about aspects of our life together. I am a glass half empty kind of a girl. I think I need to try to challenge myself to be more positive about my relationship.

We celebrate our 6th wedding anniversary on 31st of this month. What things do you do to make sure your relationship remains positive?

Day eight

It is great losing track of the days of the week during the school holidays. Usually Sundays are a source of panic and dread, but today feels like any other day of the week.

Today I have cleaned the oven (it isn’t sparkling, but almost!) and I have sorted the children’s wardrobes out – sorted clothes to give to a friend and clothes to donate. I have finished off the ironing, so aside from 1 mixed load to do, we are all caught up. This is a good feeling.

The only parts of the house that really need sorting now are the table that hubs sits at, along with all his junk and the garage – too many spiders in there of else I’d be on with that!